RETARDISM

后悔

2012-01-29T23:13:00.002+08:00

终于。。。

终于知道自己要的是什么。。

但是，时间不留人。

他。。。离我好远好远。。遥不可及。。

不知道要说什么，只知道心好痛好痛。

我知错了，我后悔了，你能回来吗？

好久好久，没有这种无助的感觉了

仿佛回到我们还未在一起的时候，你的冷漠，你的视若无睹

总能让我觉得好无助，好孤独

爱莫能助

事情的结局不该是这样的啊。。

至少我们的结局不应该是。

2012-01-11T23:29:00.002+08:00

失去的往往都是最美好的

不能奢求甚麼只能在一旁默默地盼望有一天你能看得見一顆充滿遺憾的心靈

遺憾當初無法看見你的好、遺憾當初辜負你的信任、遺憾當初我的年幼無知

許許多多的遺憾

刻骨銘心的遺憾、冷到心頭的遺憾、難以表達的遺憾

就因為是你

只求你看得見、求我們還是有可能的

最不想承認的 - 我忘不了你

就讓這份情意埋在心裡

加油，我行的

一切都化為烏有

2011-10-02T22:42:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i feel so indignant.. I really hope to be more appreciated one way or another..

I single-handedly ended all my hopes a few wks ago. My hope to have a happy ending. My hopes that i can be loved, protected etc. It all ended when i said 'let's break up'.

I kinda can feel how korean was feeling. What got into me? Was that impulse, or was it what i wanted all along? Idk. But i just know that it felt right at that point of time.

Truth is.. I miss him. I want him badly back by my side. I want to feel him once again. Yet now, everything is so virtual.. I feel so empty despite everything.

All I can feel is limitless misses and fatigue. Yes. Fatigue.

Tired of quarreling despite having so little time with each other; tired of him feeling jealous that I'm not prioritizing him; tired of just missing him.

Why make myself so miserable? Shouldnt a relationship bring you much joy instead? That's what convince me to give up.

Its simply not just 'i don't love him anymore' that easy. Oh well, if things are really that easy. Maybe i won't be crying at this time.. :( How i wish my bb can be nicer to me..

If only the only thing in his mind is not 'its either we are together or we aren't'. If only he can understand where I'm coming. If only he is not so sore about this whole thing, and let me see him again.. If only he knows that this blog exist.. If only if only.

Does he miss me? Does he still love me? Does he still want me back 1 and a half year later?

Oh man oh man. Idk hw long this is gonna last. But what i can confirm is, he is not going to know how i feel about everything.

對不起，如果事情可以變得更加簡單就好。

你的不諒解，我的身不由己

我們各種各種的分歧，其實已經讓事情變得無法挽回了。

我的思念，就讓它埋在我心底；

我的愛意，就讓它隨著時間的流逝吧。

既然今天是的轉變我要負起極大的責任，

我不會退縮，但，是全責嗎？

難道，你沒有該負責的地方？

其實，心灰意冷

我放棄了

放棄要討你歡心；放棄要讓你愉快

是主的力量，我才能承到今天

你又為了我做甚麼？

不管了。

Today would be the last day i'll be crying for you.

But i would always rmbr you. Always. Please be well. :')

Much love,

its a bottomless pit..

2011-05-22T23:55:00.002+08:00

终于收到他的信了。:')

知道他很想我，挂念我，惦记我，其实心里还是蛮高兴的。
另一个月又快过了。快吗？其实一点都不

每天都好像过得好慢长啊。
带着无比的思念过着每一天，不知道何年何时还可以见他一面，
烂透了！

地球在围绕，但我还是在原地踏步
活在两个月前的记忆里，
一直都走不出来。

我爱你 <3

Just another day.

2011-05-16T22:56:00.004+08:00

Today I caught myself smiling for no reason... then I realized I was thinking about you.
~ Unknown

Currently experiencing PMS. The decision to revive my blog is right. The only one faithful listener. After so many years, i am still a cyber person. No matter how much my friends console me or allow me to understand the truth, it is useless.

I still very much prefer to wallow in self pity.

Face it, talk is cheap. I can say everything wise. Like how we should not take drugs and it is wrong to do this do that yada yada yada...... But how tough it is for a druggie to enter cold turkey? How difficult is it to actually practice what you preach? Who can actually do that without any difficulties? How ironic life is.

Like a druggie, i am undergoing cold turkey treatment. And i shall say it like any druggie, I NEED MY "PILL". I NEED IT SO BAD. But only difference is i know i cant get it with any amount of $$.

Funny how easy my tears are flowing out.

Wtshit. I am sounding so needy & clingy. :/ Try not talking/meeting your bf for 2 whole months.

I attribute all these to PMS. D:

Absence intensifies.

2011-05-15T17:38:00.002+08:00

"Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back. Those who wish to sing always find a song. At the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet."
~ Plato

Its been awhile..

Decided to revive this because i know nobody will bother to read, which is absolutely fine with me. Since there is nothing here that will be of interest to anybody, other than my limitless misses to my boyfriend. :(

Months have passed since my last entry. Many things have changed (as expected), a whole new episode of life has begun too.

One left, another came. Things sometime happen so fast that i cant even decipher the outcome that i have created. Did i make the decision with a clear mind, or is it on impulse? Or maybe just to seek revenge?

Whatever it is, i am done with the past. Have moved on since then. Whatever impulsive decision i have made, i also have no rights to regret. Anyway, thank God that for once my impulse actually brought me somewhere. :)

Cute? :) :) :)

Many people might not understand why and how i derive at this decision. Because everything really happened too fast. Too fast. Even before anybody has the time to react, even for me.

My boy has left. For a super patriotic reason - NS. Things are not easy. Difficulty increasing everyday. 20 more months till i can see him. How many couples can actually withstand this? I doubt my ability in this.

A capricon lover. Lack of security, immense in rich feelings. Its not easy for him as well.

****

Everything has changed. The numbers are reduced from 6 to 5 too. 6th has left. Oh well, choice are made by people. Who are we to judge? Even God is not judging, who are we to judge? Its her choice also. Nothing should be said any longer. Who knows? I might be the 5th.. Forget it.

****

Sounds like i have got a lot to rant right? I.. miss my bb a lot. :(

I really do..

Can 20 months zoom zoom go by? :'(

真幸福

2010-08-12T21:08:00.001+08:00

啊：）

知道有你在我身旁，我的心就比较踏实多了。

太幸运了

又能怎样呢？

2010-08-11T23:08:00.002+08:00

他们真的说得没错，虽然说法有点，不，是非常的老套，但事情也不都是有这样的收场吗？

人的本性就是这样，在你身边徘徊的时候，就会觉得厌倦、烦，就因为这样，才会要求更多。
这也不就是所谓的贪心？不知足吗？
但，一旦失去，就会时常想起他的好，思念他的一举一动，他的种种种种。
可是，会不会有点迟？

主啊，
我知道这一切都是您的安排，
我把我的一切都寄托给您了，
原谅我的无知，天真，还有一颗收不了诱惑的心，
但愿一切都会回到从前，
阿门

Its good to change.

2010-08-09T19:54:00.001+08:00

就这么不巧我很无聊，也那么不巧我看到以前的那些照片，又那么不巧我想起以前种种的事情，还是那么不巧地想起你。

超可惜，如果没发生那件事，我想我们还是很好很好的朋友吧。

在最困难的时候守护着彼此，不让彼此的心灵受到任何的创伤。
真不知道是我做得不好，还是你当初还年轻无知。
有时候真是想念你。以前大概是一个非常遥远的事实吧。

你过得好吗？

我们都已经往前走，再也不是2-3年前那乳臭未干的女孩了。
也是件好事吧。：）

保重了，
我那不是朋友的朋友。

Its been a long time

2010-08-06T22:45:00.002+08:00

Sup homies. (Y)

Much happened when im not updating this space of mine. Was really contemplating to close this place down. But, all the wonderful memories that accompanied me through my growing up process are here. So, maybe not lah huh.

People come and they go, only true friends really stay. It sounds so cheesy yea? I experienced it myself countless times. Sometimes, i do really miss the small little gatherings when we will just talk cock whole day and laugh at senseless jokes, just purely feeling the warmth of having people around me. May say that its just a stance to cover the void in within, but, ya, enjoyable nonetheless?

Things change as time change. People, environment and even the world is changing. Nobody can expect anybody to stay the same.

So many so many things to say.

现在终于了解，有些东西真的是要自己体会才会明白。
那种空虚真的难以形容。

不知道是不是只有我有这种感受
在人来人往的走道上，每个人似乎都有自己的生活，自己一个人走着，还真得有点寂寞

有时候，真的希望时间可以倒回，我还是那个对残酷的现实一知半解的女孩

看起来像是无比伤感的 post 吧，
错了！本小姐只不过是感叹罢了。

:)

Too much for me..

2010-05-21T22:12:00.002+08:00

Hello everybody. {if there's even somebody on this rotten space}

I feel so detached from blogosphere now, that i dont read/visit/frequent blogs. Come on, what do you expect when i dont even blog frequently.

Its just so like me, to live in my own world, looking lost. :)
I only look lost btw, im not really lost. Ohkay.. Maybe a tad bit blur.

Time is zooming past day by day. Weekends passed by exceptionally fast. Sometimes i wonder whether looking forward to weekends is actually a good practice. Once weekends passed, means im a week closer to killer A's. -.-

It just feels as if promos has ended.

Things have not been really smooth for me. But i believe Daddy will pave just the right path for me. So, im just following the flow. Uncertainty sure can cause much problems huh. But why worry? Daddy to my rescue! :)

Glory to You!

Bye. Gotta get some history done! WOOT.

Ps: K.B just said he is comparable to top (bigbang). & i almost puked. x.x

Chasing after the train

2010-04-03T11:18:00.001+08:00

ARGH.

Tuition starts next week, gonna check the place out tomorrow. D:

Ok, i really hope it works, because i really dont wanna flunk my H1.

Went to check out the exam timetable yesterday. It is horrible. The in between breaks between papers can go as long as a week? :(

On a lighter note, we'll end much earlier than the rest. On the 26th. Argh, miss that taste of freedom.

Town-ing later on with baby boy, not to shop, not to slack BUUUUT to study. ARGH. Please remind me again how much life sucks. :(

I DONT CARE. IM GOING TO SHOP AFTER I STUDIED.

"L3 answers are expected from you during the tut"

Here and there.

2010-04-02T03:19:00.006+08:00

Supppz! D:

I've gotta admit, blogging suddenly has become the last thing that will appear on my mind already. Well, i havent been using the computer for like at least a solid month? Everytime i wanna go online, itouch is so readily available that i realised i've been neglecting my lil o lappy. D:

So much so much had happened. Let's see, gazillions of birthdays passed (cant help it, i know a lot of march babies, and im one of themmmmmm), memorable orientation, danceworks and common test.

Birthday treat @ rendezvous hotel w gfs and baby. :)
THANK YOU GUYS! & LING, ALTHOUGH YOU ARE NOT THERE, I STILL (L) YOU.

credits to dae tan

I must say this anti-drug is one of the most memorable one. Although there are many unhappinness, low morale etc, we all still managed to pull through. & even though we dint manage to win anything, i think the fact that we are able to put something up in the first place is something we are able to show off. WE ARE THE WINNERRRRRRRS can own RI! (Y)

Come on, this has got to be a first time that i joined a competition without a decent instructor and competition RIGHT AFTER common test ok? & it turned out to be.... AWESOME! OH WOW! LIKE.......... {i shall stop}

credits to edison (if i got his name right)

Why am i still blogging at this unearthly hour?

Because i've decided to set my laziness aside and upload all those LONNGGGGGGG overdued pictures.

{Yawns, im tired.}

Twitter has become so convenient for me that whenever i feel the need to update about my daily happenings, i'll just twit. & i found out quite a lot of stalkers stalking my twit. D: not that its very interesting or im some very famous figure.

TSKKKK.

Gonna take out my contact lens and go to bed now.

Oh btw, i FINALLY finish watching K.O3. Shall start on flashforward and many many other stuff.

WOOOO! A LEVELS IS OVERRRRR!
My ass.

Let's not forget that today is good friday. The day Son of God died on the cross for us. Not just any ordinary weekend/holiday/break, but a day to be thankful. :)

Much love. :)

Taking a break D:

2010-02-18T11:37:00.002+08:00

Havent been updating frequently.

So, i've decided to go on a hiatus!

Till then.. BYEBYE.

The horrible 2-way track.

2010-02-04T03:47:00.002+08:00

Yes, wondered why im still up at this unearthly hour? :(

I down with rashes. And the itch is preventing me from getting my beauty sleep. Argh.

But thank God, my prayers were answered, and im blessed. It subsided already. Now the itch is at the thigh there, but still uncomfortable. :(

I WANT TO GO SCHOOL TOMORROW.

Before i actually realised, its the last time im going to spend time with my mg mates tomorrow. How strange, people usually say they will be closer to their OG rather than MG (which technically speaking, should be the case), but maybe because i hvnt see my OG yet, that's why im saying this.

God has been really nice to me. He blessed me with a super nice bunch of people, and a super funbun clan.

@ Ling, CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SCOLDING! You're forever complaining about life in your blog. TSKK. But i miss you much. :(

@ Grace, OG will definitely be much better. Need help can tell me. Im good at scaring J1s to sing and cheer. D: D: D: D:

Its time for some degree of maturity to kick in

2010-01-31T12:34:00.003+08:00

I heard some pretty bad news on friday when i was slogging my ass to search some info. Was so stunned and shock that my hands were literally shaking. Even dae was in a state of shock. How hard it is for me to rack my brain to think of a reason behind this, but, the conclusion i get was immaturity.

All the assurance that you've changed for the better, i guess its just something you used to brush me aside, so i wont probe? Ok, fine. I wont.

That aside, i've been rather busy lately. Reaching home late, waking up early everyday. Much much earlier than what i used to {cm'on, my house i freagging near the school, wake up so early for what!}. Aint used to it at all. :(

And i find it rather hard to switch back to the study mode which im supposed to have. Guess its really time for some catching up to be done. O:

Nevertheless, i enjoyed myself during orientation. MG01 is really outgoing, and willing to open up to me. Although during songs and cheers they are really soft. But the girls are so on! I like (L) Not forgetting my partners, Samuel and Ka sheng who never fail to crack me up, and support me whenever i need them.

Yes, the chemisty between the babylonians is really strong. :)

& i really like that kinda feeling. :D

Blessed by Your presence

2010-01-27T23:28:00.002+08:00

I wonder what's my threshold for stress. How far i can endure?

Its only the beginning of the year, but im totally stress out already.

Thank God dance still has Joseph and Vivian, allowing me to see some hope afterall. As for the rest? Errrr... i-cant-find-a-more-screwed-up-word-to-describe. Tsk.

I know it is wrong to say this only now, but is my decision to be an OGL wrong? Like ohmygosh, the lessons i'll be missing and the remedials i'll miss. Its enough to form a mass destruction troop. But, since i already decided on it.... Guess, im going to enjoy myself, to make up for my loss. :')

God really dotes me. My partners are fun bunch. (L)

Ok, i've got to wake up @ 5.45 tmr. & im still doing my IS. Going to talk to Victor Koh tmr. Wish me much luck.

You amaze me with Your unfailing love. (L)

I realise the slightest thing can make me frustrated. Time for a change! D:

Science and tech.

2010-01-18T18:15:00.002+08:00

Im trying to figure out how to go about doing my Gp essay.

Damn tough.

Partially also because of the topic - science and tech? WTH?! :(

Die.

Im too tired to blog.

The 2km run almost killed me. AND ITS ONLY 2KM. -.- Holiday really ruins me {rather than technology..... whatever!}

Bye fags.

This is also known as..... The homework rush.

2010-01-15T20:09:00.002+08:00

So tired.

Is it me, or J2 life is more tiring as compared to last year, although we dint do anything much? Just the first day of school, and i cant wait for the arrival of friday already. D:

10 more months to go. High speed bullet trains. Ya da ya da.. I've been hearing this almost everyday, and i think there will be more to come in future. O: {kill me}

As a committed student, im going to chiong my homework now. So that i can relax and have a nice steamboat with fat butt tmr. :)

CHIONGGGGGGG ~~

I cant believe my proposal got rejected AGAIN. Cb. Stupid manwhore. Scammed me.

BABYLONIANS UNITEEEEEEE!

2010-01-09T11:29:00.002+08:00

Babylons unite, we show our might.
We'll show them how we really fight.
We'll fight to the end with all our might.
KING! KIANG! SHA!

I've not been updating my blog regularly. Super lazy to switch on my com.

I just came back from camp, and i must say it's really an awesome one. Love my clan mates to the max dood. Laughters, teamwork, unity etc. I know orientation will be a good one. :D

{I've got a lot to say, but cannot remember anything now -.-}

Not feeling my best the past few days. Seen a doctor, but not of much use. Still contemplating whether should go steamboat later on.

ARGH. Weak immune system.

HAPPY LATE-NEW YEAR

2010-01-04T19:34:00.004+08:00

A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! :D
{Ok, i know this is late, but well, what to do when im lazy to use the computer?}

2009 has been a year filled with mix feelings, awesome experience and so on.

As usual, people come and they go. This almost seems like an usual routine each year. I've not been in constant contact with people who were once uberly close to me {shant name them out}, but whatever.

I've got my........

..... Awesomely awesome gfriends, who never fail to insert joy in my life. (L)

..... Beloved bestie, who will listen to all my random rantings and intro me nice k. songs. (Y) ILY MUCH BESTIE!

...... Super fat buttttttttt, who always cracked me up with his random weird actions. {I dont have your peeekture. Sorwiieeee nehhhz}

....... Manly bros, the gang of men who can allow me to show the manly side of meee. HOHOHO.
{MAN DUN TAKE PICTURES. (Y)}

....... DAWN CHUA! :D Cant imagine what's life without her. My gawdz.

{I also dont have a picture of just you & me. There's a bitch in all my pictures with youuuuuu. >:(}

&&&&
My love, who stood by me no matter what. :)

I'm sick. How the hell am i going to OGL camp tmr? :(

Pictures overloadddd!

2009-12-25T19:17:00.003+08:00

Ok, been quite a while since i blogged.

First of all, MERRY CHRISTMAS. Feel bless? Im blessed. :)

Caught avatar & planet 51. I must say, avatar is totally awesome. C:

Gfs outing

Seoul garden with baby

Taka colleagues. (L)

END.

*****

Its just so sad to know that this is how things will end.
With everything disappearing without any trace.

Is this how you want things to be?
This whole drama-mama love entanglement.

There.
You have it.

You better pray with ernest each night.
Pray that God will understand all your actions and will forgive you.

But to me?
You are a bitch.

>:(

2009-12-22T00:44:00.001+08:00

Im freaking angry.

Argh.

My e-71 plan failed. & it makes me mad.

#$%^&*

Sounds childish. But who cares.

Im still angry. >:(

Nah, leave it.

2009-12-17T14:04:00.002+08:00

Im too lazy to do anything right now.

But, its been a long time since all the 8 of us went out together. :D So, despite my laziness, i've decided to post this picture here. :D

China kites do attract quite a bit of attention. The awesome thing of all is that its damn easy to fly. Although it tangles quite easily.... \m/

(L)

Ps: im really too lazy to post the china pics up here, although i've uploaded everything in photobucket. Boo.

Sick

2009-12-09T18:52:00.004+08:00

Sick on the 3rd day after i come back. :(

Fever and running nose. Boo Boo.

Baby boy in camp. Sian. :(

WHERE ARE YOU.

BACK IN MUDALAND!!

2009-12-07T20:18:00.003+08:00

HI FOLKS.

IM BACK IN MUDALANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!

Had mama's homecook food for breakfast the moment im back home. Awesome or what.

Mix feelings about the China trip. At one hand, im homesick. On the other, i enjoyed myself there. Made a lot of new friends. Of course, there are rantings too. Manwhore. *roll eyes.

Epic vids, 300 over pictures. (Y)

Will upload them soon.

Absolute bf-ing soooooonz. :D

You meant it a different way

2009-11-26T00:49:00.002+08:00

I dont know why.

Whenever i thought about what you've done. Its almost impossible to dissolve any unhappiness within. IMPOSSIBLE.

There are at least a gazillion questions in my mind.

I dont know why this is affecting me so hell much, when the others already passed that stage already.

To hell with you bitch. _l_

Will be missing lazy boy for 10 days. BUT, spending 10 days with gfs in cold cold cheena should be able to make up for it. With a thousand phonecards and a going-to-explode phonebill should do the job. :)

600th

2009-11-20T21:15:00.002+08:00

600th POST!
AWESOME SHIT.

Giving alumni dinner a miss. HAHA. Thank God i dint go {i will faint listening to ms sim's longgggggggggg speech}. Baby said its boring. HA! Maybe because i dint go. :) :) :)

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I want to go food fair @ Expo. I want steamboat/international buffet. Two thumbs upppp. :)

BESTIE ERH, IM GOING CHINA SOON. CAN WE MEET UP. ARGH. >:(

What a boring 600th post. Nb.

Are you outta your freaking mind?

2009-11-13T09:56:00.004+08:00

Hell yaaaa earthlings!

All thanks to God's grace, im promotedddd!! \m/

Ok, cant wait for a get-together with my girlfriends again. :D whatever buffet also can, so long its buffet, two thumbs up! (Y)(Y)

A happy belated birthday to Nich boy. (:

Doesnt this resemble you? :) :)

Ok, now, i know my blog is not private, so, whatever i post can be seen by anyone. But, those people who really truly know me, or even those who think they know me, will know that im not one who really bothers about comments. I just shoot my mind. So even if my words clearly will offend people, I DONT CARE.

& yes, i was freaking piss of yesterday. So piss off that, i feel like hitting people, but ended up scolding my bf instead. Sorry la, he's the only available one what. HAHA.

After many many thoughts, i still dont get it. With a bf who treats you like a gem, why will you still enter such a sticky situation which you are currently in now? Is that thrill really so fun? What will the others think of you?

Not the first time such thing had happen, yet again, he chose to start all over again. But, is the feeling still the same? Is the trust still there?

I will be direct here, you dont deserve such a good guy.

Ahh.

I feel like screaming again. !@#$%^&*(

What will be ahead?

2009-11-11T22:33:00.002+08:00

I need all the help God can give now. Tomorrow is promotional exercise. And im not confident AT ALL. This is trouble i guess? I dont want to be left behind. Neither do i want to start all over again. It took me so long to adapt to this new environment, to the strangers.

A late briefing = late dinner = hungry & frustrated HY. Poor Grace. She still got sing-along session. HAHA. {im just kidding}

Going China soon. Hope i will have no problem adapting to the weather. As low as -5 degree Celsius! Gosh. Save me.

Please remind me to bring more tissue. & daesiree tan. you better bring a few rolls of toilet rolls just in case. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Hyped bout my muscles talk with Bestie love. Miss him max. K-ing with him sooooon. HAHA. Cant wait. <3

A foiled plan

2009-11-09T11:43:00.002+08:00

:( :( :( :( :( :( (i can so spam this face for a million times)

YES. IM TERRIBLY UPSET RIGHT NOW.

Because i couldnt go camping anymore. Fuckkkkk. Arghhh. Never mind. I seriously think the adults have one screw loose in their puny brain.

Photos for gfs outing on friday:

I still like the reaction of the waitress in crystal jade when we said we want 12 long of x-l-b. The facee, just rocks to the max.

One down.

2009-11-02T14:58:00.002+08:00

A's MTL today. Quite tough ah. Easier than O's HMT, harder than normal. So what does it mean? :(

My A is like drifting away from me. Quite worried, hope the time and money spent wont be wasted. Lord will take the lead. :)

On a brighter side, i wont get anything less than a B. HAHAHA. Own.

I need more money!!

Money please drop from the sky. :(

I havent done any shopping for my china trip & there's a lot of things i wanna get. Esp that Feb 29th bag which i've been eyeing for fucking long alrdy. ARGHHHHHHH.

How glad i am that everything's fine now. :)

The latest craze

2009-11-01T00:09:00.002+08:00

I think 曹操 in ko-3 is good looking. :D Should i watch hot shot? Hmmmmmm.

I miss lingzi. :(

Faster come back lehhhhhh.

I shall start shopping for my china trip already. O:

-

2009-10-29T22:55:00.002+08:00

Good shit. My edusave account is only left with $87.87. Almost impossible to withdraw anything out. So i guess, its the full amount? Hope im able to apply for opportunity fund. Teehee. D:

My laptop resolution is fking screwed. Sian.

Yay. Im going camping with baby soooooooooon. :D :D :D

Cant wait for the many camps, chalets and most importantly china trip (although 10 days without bf is torturing)!! \m/

{k.o-ing, please do not disturb}

Bye mudabitches.

God saves the day.

2009-10-28T23:08:00.003+08:00

Just when i thought i wont be able to go china......

STANLEY TEXTED ME. :) :) :)

&&& SO... IM GOING CHINA MUDAFUCKERS.

This totally made my day.

I look like a zombie.

-.-

2009-10-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

I dont like how i spend my anni.

The overwhelming happiness

2009-10-27T00:17:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERNEST WONG.ZY.

I've got so much to say to you. But i feel so weird saying here. So.. Just want to say I LOVEEE YOU.

Happy 1st anni baby. :)

I CANT WAIT FOR GATHERING WITH MY EX-TAKA-COLLEAGUES. <3

Much loves.

Sleep and more sleep.

2009-10-25T22:09:00.005+08:00

I freaking hell slept till 6 pm, waking up only for my heavy Brunch and toilet. >:(

Am i the only one who is bored or what? Hope O's can be over soon. I can do with Butt's company. Ahhh.

I wanna eat and just eat my life away, going for buffets after buffets, steamboats after steamboats, not giving a hoot about my ever growing body. >:(

Other than PW and the promotion day, i've nothing much to worry about these days.

Its just sleep, dramas, pw, patoh. And the cycle continues.

SO BORING.

I wanna travel. & am trying my luck tomorrow. D:

CAMPING.CAMPING.CAMPING.CAMPING.
PICNIC.PICNIC.PICNIC.PICNIC.

I cant wait.

edited @ 2.07am

AHH. Just finished episode 29 of KO3.

The most touching episode yet. I CRIED LIKE CRAZY.

Two thumbs up, two toes up in the air. (Y)(Y)

Cruel reality

2009-10-20T21:24:00.005+08:00

Currently experiencing a bad time of my life.

Unfair. This is the word to describe how i feel right now.

:(

Sucky results. Way below the target that i had set for myself. And worse is not even my appeal to go to china is being approved. And the girls are all going. Fuck.

I cant take it anymore.

What can i do to be optimistic once again?

I'm wrong.

2009-10-17T23:29:00.001+08:00

Thank God.

At least i know you still care. :)

Heartwarming messages.

Awesome gfs

2009-10-17T12:10:00.003+08:00

Dint get to try the reverse bungee, BUT! Tried something even more awesome.

G-max extreme swing. \m/

Although 30 bucks is a rip off, but, like it!

So.. When we were up there..

EVERYBODY: Wait for the green light!
Green light is on.

CELINE: AHHHH. IM SO SCARED. HY PRESSSSS!
HY: I ALSO VERY SCARED! CELINE 1 2 3, PRESS!
EVERYBODY: 1....2....
CELINE: AHHHHHH. I DONT DAREE!!
HY: OKOK! I PRESS!
EVERYBODY: 1...2...3...
Hy pressed the release.

EVERYBODY: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

So when everything is over.....

Worker 1: Do you know who won the screaming competition?
Everybody: *Look around* Who?
Worker 1: *eyeing Ling* There that one.

HAHA. SO FUNNY.

Pictures up next! Stay tune!

/edited @ 11.30pm

PICTURES!

Worried.

2009-10-16T00:10:00.001+08:00

Next tuesday decides my fate.

No other alternative.

Can i make it? Wait a minute. I dont have a choice.

I can. I need. I must.

ASSUME = ASS + U + ME

2009-10-14T17:41:00.004+08:00

This is a new life altogether. A little more adaptation. Im sure i'll be able to pull through.

Yes i can! :)

I loveeeeeeee my classmates like a lot a lot! Went lan for the 2nd time in my life for L4D & CS. But bad thing is, im having dizzy spells now. So bad. >:( i'll own sh4ggy one day. Arghh.

Jc life is so enjoyable with them. No internal conflict, no enemies, just one big family. :) really like that feeling.

Byeeeee. Im going k.o-ing now! Mudafkerssss!

/edited @ 9.17pm

OHMYGOD. How can i even forget!

WELCOME BACK BESTIE LOVE! Wo hen xiang ni lehhhhh.
I still love you, whether or not you got my straw hat. Hehe. :D

Ms Shalwa is getting married. The most awesome thing is, SHE IS GOING TO MAKE US (gfs & me & some other girls i think?) TO BE HER "JIEMEIs". & WE GET TO KEEP THE GREEN PACKET (they malay whatttz)!!!!!! Malay wedding. Cant wait. :) :): )

Daddy won 4D. &&& he is giving me money. $$$$$$$. Why do i feel so blessed. :D

Thank you Lord. At least i know i still have You to rely on. :)

Not me, its you

2009-10-13T23:07:00.010+08:00

Let me begin my lengthy post with this phrase from Diana Ser (if i got her name right):
Happiness can be touched, its within grasp.

Ok, no link to what im going to blog today. I just dont know why, that phrase impacted me quite a bit i guess?

IHG today. Good game guys! Although i did regret not participating in captain's ball. The team is....... CUI. Bleah. Guess me and gfs can do a much much better job i guess? HAHA. At least clinch a 3rd place laaaaaaaa.

But, sad to say, i did not end school with a happy note. I left school feeling grouchy about the happenings around me, couldnt even feel the joy when the emcee announced my house champion. Argh. W.H.Y?

Because i found out something. Something that may change my view forever. Or perhaps things had already changed, just that i refused to admit, and this a further confirmation of my denial - that our foundation is not strong enough to withstand any small setback.

Had a small talk with baby (if you think the above is refering to me and my bf, neh!), and i realised that im wrong. So wrong. All my presumptions had gone all wrong! Nothing much has changed, its the individual! Yes. Of course. Why did i fail to realise that till now? One word. Denial.

Argh. I know any further rants will result in a mess that is hard to disentangle . But really, for once i hoped to be approached instead of me approaching.

Im sick of taking initiatives.

It amazes me how much some things can affect my mood so much. That even a weeny bit, is able to keep me occupied for hours. So freagging disappointed. For all i know, i maybe referring to myself as well, but if i'm able to pin point MY mistakes, I'LL be able to amend them too.

Alright, i cant wait for reverse bungee with gfs on friday! Something i wanna try for years already!!! GFs = fun = craziness = video making = loads of laughter = LLTTM.

What i need is God now. Just me, myself, & my almighty Daddy.

P.E.A.C.E.

Ps: Self-reflection has to be done. Me & you.

Pps: cant believe i broke down because of this. :(

I'm safe.. Under Your wings

2009-10-11T00:10:00.005+08:00

Went out with Lingzi yesterday. That crazy girl. We had fun in Ion's toilet. LOL @ our faces.

More at fb!

Yesterday is also Grace the mudabitch's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Although im not the first to wish her(Zm, you watch out.). >:(

Ps: This picture suits you so much. Because you are forever eating. D:

Shit. K.O 3 is fking addictive. Xiu is so retardedly cute. So different from who he is in x-family.

This is taken super longgg ago.

I've never felt so safe, so blessed. :)

Towards guiltless chao-ism and liberation! \m/

2009-10-07T22:05:00.002+08:00

YES!

Im amazed at how relieved i felt after stepping out from the container classroom right after my history SEA exam. I literally hugged Dan Tang and jumped around in joy.

The really weird thing is, im not even as happy after O's. Guess this exam really meant a lot to.

Wasnt really prepared for my last paper, ended up smoking through my 2 essays.

Oh, did i mention? I did a total of 11 essays, excluding Econs case study and the sub questions for Econs. Thank God the writing frantic is over. AHHHHH.

:D

Cant wait for food tour with A05 clique tomorrow. :D

Caught surrogates with my classmates. & i totally love the show. Two thumbs up raised high in the air. :)

Bye mudafkers! Im chao-ing! :) :) :)

To the start of liberation

2009-09-27T22:35:00.002+08:00

Ok, tomorrow will be the start of promos.

Dawn Chua is troubled. D: Nb, HOW MANY TIMES MUST I TELL YOU. Some things are not within your grasp. Just let things be. Maybe she is still going through the stage of maturity (i presume? Hmmm.) Promos more important lah dey. Prioritize please. AIYO!

Talking about promos.. The level of my anxiousness worries me quite a bit. I dont know why im still so relaxed. & i dreamt that i went to poly yesterday. A premonition? A bad sign? Or, its a just a dream? O:

Gp tomorrow. I swear i've never wanted to pass my exam so much in my entire life before. But! I believe, with God, everything is possible. & im going to enter the exam hall with that in mind. God will see me through everything. :)

LOL @ my previous post. CY scolded me for putting that up. >:( That's why i've taken it down. People, DONT read too much into it kayz. DON'T AH. D.O.N.T!

ffls. Double boos.

2009-09-26T22:58:00.003+08:00

Please stop impersonating Celine. No childhood. O:

Hope you like the feeling of being chase by police. AHAHA. IN YOUR FACE.

**
Took my first ever neoprint with baby! :D :D :D Although we had difficulty operating the damn machine, but had fun decorating. Damn bullshit.

Out studying with han chia, fadhil, grace and posh today. I guess i studied quite a bit? I met Ah lian quack today toooooooooo. Lepak like crazy bodoh. O:

Im sure you will get your karma. Since you believe in them so much. -.-

Retard-ism

2009-09-26T00:15:00.004+08:00

24th Sept, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAE.

25th Sept, Caught fame, and made many retarded videos.

Studying is the new sex. O:

Its an easier way to die

2009-09-19T01:14:00.007+08:00

IM DOING EVERYTHING BUT STUDYING. >:(

"Dont study ah, die loh"

Im so bored that im browsing through ALL my friends' profiles in fb. But, before that i was browsing picture of............

TADAAAAAAA!!

Nb, idky my heart is thumping extremely fast. D:

Money money, please drop from the sky. O:

Its almost impossible to stop since the moment it started.

A late danza!

2009-09-17T22:13:00.002+08:00

Danza pictures finally uploaded. >:(
More in fb!

Photobucket is being a bitch today. I had to upload the pictures like 3-4 times b4 its finally uploaded. >:(

DIE MOFO DIE.

WELCOME BACK LMT.
&
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELINE TAN.

LLTTM. Hope you like the prez!

A whole load of bullshit

2009-09-11T23:29:00.004+08:00

Talk about trying to be more diligent. Im becomng more and more lazy. Argh. So horrible.

Im lazy to blog, lazy to post pictures, lazy to switch on my computer (fyi, i blogged this using my touch, convenience of technology), lazy to even move. >:( ok, i shall try my best to upload the pics i took during danza. Soon alright peeps, soon.

Buuuuuut! Had 4 hours of hardcore math sessions with dan tang. Its always nice to study math wih an expert. Hahahahahaha. Super productive. I loike!

I must get smtg off my chest. I FREAKING SAW 2 PAIRS OF LESBIAN IN CCKS UNIFORM BEHAVING INTIMATELY YTD. argh. Fucking disturbing. Nb! Hug till so tight somemore. Hey girls, its not the end of the world yet, its best to leave things behind close doors alright. >:(

My star is dying. :(

Aliens in the attic is one thumbs up! (Y)

Late goodbye to beloved bestie who is at vietnam for 10 whole bloody weeks! Remember my ancient straw hat! >:( Miss you ttm.

confusion taking its toll

2009-09-06T00:55:00.000+08:00

How can i be so sensitive despite what had happened?

What is going on?

Love weakens one

2009-08-22T19:23:00.002+08:00

Have been rathered troubled/tensed up/stress/down this few days. And idk why.

Is it school? Is it my relationship? Or is it just me?

I still havent realised whats the problem.

我还在寻找我失去的那一角.

???

2009-08-19T19:25:00.000+08:00

Worn out.

The love we give away is the only love we keep. -Elbert Hubbard.

2009-08-18T22:54:00.004+08:00

Not attractive, not muscular, not sociable, not sensitive, not well-like.
Millions and millions of bad points.
But, im still attracted to him. :)

Face of an angel.

2009-08-15T21:43:00.004+08:00

I dont know why. But i see the need to post this picture up. :) :)

I think im in love with him. <3

edited @ 3.19am

As i was saying, yesterday was out with beloved gfs. Most of the pictures with the rest, so, im gonna post what i have, which is very very very little.

Hugs and kisses.

Girls nights out.

2009-08-15T00:23:00.005+08:00

If only we are not bounded by curfews..

The night is still young! O:

Girls night out today. Had our usual share of laughter and randomness together with pictures.

I can finally wake up late tomorrow. This hectic week is coming to an end, but that also implies that i'm one more week nearer to promos. Ha. Ironic. Looking forward to every weekend, but, dreading promos. Worse of the worse?

IM NOT PREPARED AT ALL.

Have anybody realise that time is actually passing at a speed of 452362345236452364023km/sec? Its then i realised that I've accomplished nothing ever since the moment i stepped into PJC.

I dint even know that reading books has unknowingly become one of my favourite entertainment. Away from heavy content based textbooks, and formulas.

"Be cool, stay out of school"

Nice.

edited @ 3.35am

Guess i need some attention too ya?

This is colder than cold.

This is bad.

2009-08-08T14:33:00.002+08:00

Yes, indeed, you've changed and become like the rest. Is this the only way to blend in?

Why you? Why?

Busy manz.

2009-08-08T13:23:00.001+08:00

Nabei i miss you sia.

Gaining weight, yet, happy. :)

2009-08-05T18:46:00.003+08:00

Hell, if life is going to be like that for the next one year plus, I SWEAR, i'll go crazy. Somebody just book a place for me in the asylum for me.

Sigh. Back to EOM & math & econs. Oh great. I just miss my chance to go sydney. How nice. But! I dont mind walking in the desert covered in snow (I think?).

I've gained weight. Although i dint muster my courage to stand on a scale, but im sure i've gained weight. Junk food, fried food, & many food. :(

Saturday will be Ikea with butty. FOOOOOOOD. Sunday (cross fingers) will be fireworks watching with brudders. *pokes Ernest Wong.

LOL @ myself.

food overload

2009-07-27T23:43:00.002+08:00

I kept eating throughout the whole of yesterday. :( I was hungry once every 2 hours. & stupid Celine tan has to rub it in by saying that she went jogging. Argh. Sinful ttm.

Its ok, enjoyable day. :)

What a nice weather to sleep in today. & i have to attend school. Wet blanket. Tskkkk.

Mr Tan said something rather stupid when he saw this auntie with a bulging tummy. The conversation goes..

HY: Whoaa. How come your tummy resembles the auntie's? Tskk.
CY: Its different! Mine can keep me warm, provide extra energy, while hers will only keep expanding.
HY: Wtf.

Ok, i've got nothing better to do. -.-

Bestie going to Vietnam for bloody hell 7 weeks. :( :( But, he promised webcam sessions, so im still a happy girl. :))))

9 months and still counting..... :D

P/s: I almost took neoprints yesterday.

So loved, so perfect.

2009-07-23T21:13:00.002+08:00

School has never been so busy. With pw deadline approaching, and the deadly result slip. What a wake up call.

I like my safety/comfort zone. Dont wanna step up of it. Just awhile more. :)

TGF girlfriends, bros & dawn & baby.

Changed my phone! Samsung star. Prettyz. \m/

Simple, yet nice.

D:

2009-07-16T17:00:00.001+08:00

Follow me on twitter!

www.twitter.com/tanhy
www.twitter.com/tanhy

Im dreading school.
Im dreading the upcoming PTM.

That bitter taste

2009-07-14T17:35:00.001+08:00

Please tell me why i am feeling so miserable and pathetic, not even bi's hug is able to relieve that. ):

Its love

2009-07-12T11:56:00.003+08:00

Mintao is going back to Aussie today. Time flies, two weeks had passed. I want nougats hor. :DD

Friday was steamboat with gfs. & sat was mahjong & singing & eating session with Dawn, Mt & beloved. W.O.N.D.E.R.F.U.L.

Im currently sitting in front of my laptop, waiting for food to be served. BUT! There's no one at home. :( So i'll be serving myself.

Boo.

Maybe i shall go on a hunger strike today. HEHE.

Baby, i'll do what i promise. :)

Operation PS

2009-07-08T15:03:00.003+08:00

I still cant believe i spent like nearly 2 hours in the school toilet just to escape from draggy GP lecture. -.-

Coool.

Bak kut teh steamboat with my gfs on friday. Wonderful mama. <3

7 more days to the birth of my new phone. :D

Never ending laughter

2009-07-05T01:18:00.002+08:00

Came back from 大王回来了-steamboat. Ate a lot, but less than what i aimed to eat. HEHE. D: But, i've got a big bag of nougats. THANKS MT! :D :D :D

Camwhore A LOT as usual. More pictures with Pang.

I laughed a lot. Especially on the way home with Mark, Dex, Yijin, Line and Mintao. OHMYGOD. The jokes they cracked, totally cracked me up.

We should have more of this kinda gathering. I LIKE. Prawning with bi's clique. Am looking forward to it as well. Im charging my cameraaaaa. :) :) :) :)

I love laughter &i love food. :)

BYEBYE.
& i miss lingy.

Say hiiii!

2009-07-03T21:35:00.002+08:00

HY SAYS HI!!

bye bye!

I cant wait for 大王回来了-steamboat. :DD I shall use 5 bucks to win over Mintao's assets. :)

GOOD FRIEND, WATCH OUT EH. *flickers eyebrow.

Short post

2009-06-24T19:38:00.003+08:00

& it was to my blog, to grace's blog, to celine's blog, to ling's blog, to pang's blog, to rene's blog, to sk's blog and back to mine.

& im outta here.

Oh. Econs is brain juice draining.

Byeeeeee. >:[

What did ya'all call that?

2009-06-19T23:05:00.002+08:00

Im feeling weird. No wait. I always feel weird. Sometimes i dun even understand myself. Tsk. What terrible feeling.

I've always thought that i can juggle well. How wrong i am. Who the hell gives free lunch in this world? HAHA. Perhaps im at fault too. Wrong at pointing out mistakes, wrong at being frank and everything.

人心难测. People used to tell me that im just like an open book. But there are even hidden meanings between lines. Ok, im not making any sense alrdy. I believe everything i say here will be highly misinterpreted.

Get used to it manxzxz. This is life. :O

Its absurd the way how things turn out

2009-06-19T01:59:00.003+08:00

Im officially addicted to BOF. & i think bf is unhappy bout it. Thank God i'm gng to finish the drama already.

Garri Goh, although you suck, but i still love you. Awwwwz. I rock right? >:O

Life's really all about BOF and food. Im not exercising, and am not studying. Sinful.

The weather is killing me. I need some snow.

You found me when no one else was looking

2009-06-15T19:01:00.002+08:00

Ohk. Maybe its time i update this rotten thing of mine. >:O

Dance concert + Class CIP + Class Chalet + many many ~~failed~~ attempts to study freagging COLD WAR = first two weeks of holidays. D:

Terrible, horrible, vegetable.

Am goin to upload many many pictures. Bear with MY face worhxzxzxz.

Dance concert @ esplanade. :)

Class chalet. (rest @ FB)

Studying @ lot mac.

I've got a thousand cravings. & im not talking to butt hole. && i hvnt met bestie for a week. BAD. BAD. BAD. :(

Im happy with my itouch. Im happy happy that i can change my phone next month. Im happy happy happy that i've got wonderful gfs. Im happy happy happy happy that im going to eat now.

Bye folks!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2009-06-04T23:19:00.001+08:00

BABY SK! This shows that we never forget youuuuuuu. :)

LIKE NOT? HAHA.

Gfs = L.O.V.E

2009-06-04T22:05:00.002+08:00

I FEEL SO HAPPY. Because i ate a lot (food prepared by gfs and mama), i had my share of laughter & i took a lot a lot of pictures (up on fb). :)

Shall share some of the peeeeks here. Videos will be up soon. Youtube is taking forever to load my videos. SLOOOOOOOOW.

HAHA.

This shows how much fun i had today. & how much i look forward to today. :)

Nothing can be better.

2009-06-02T23:09:00.005+08:00

IM ALL HYPED FOR THURSDAY.

I MISS LING
I MISS PANG
I MISS RENE
I MISS GRACE
I MISS DAE
I MISS LINE
I MISS SK
I MISS CRAPPING AROUND.
I MISS LAUGHING AT NOTHING.
I MISS RANDOM-ING.
I MISS .. .. .. .. .. .. ..

I need fooooood.

Something random. I dwl-ed hokkien songs. :DDDDDD

Am not in the best of mood. Feel like slapping a particular someone. & im so going to do that.

Embracing changes, facing challenges.

2009-05-29T23:43:00.003+08:00

Wed, 3rd June = Math Exam = Hell day.

Skipped movie with gfs. Went out to study math. Just the thought of entering the examination hall on wed, makes me tremble. Brrrr.

Gp exam today. Hard.

Ok, am not going to update my blog till picnic with gfs. Got this sudden urge to ask sk to pon her class. HAHA. Ohk, im kidding baby. :)

Gfs, time to catch up! Wo love ni men. <3

Its all in the mind

2009-05-23T23:13:00.004+08:00

Maybe i should keep my distance from certain things in life. Everything may or may not be what you and me see. Deception, deception. Separations and reunions, friends and foes. All these vicious cycles. Oh... To hell with them.

Every start of a new relationship = an end to a friendship. Why does this sound so true?

ZACK OH EM JEE. Voteva!

Im not studying. X 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000. :(

Talking session with vege head on Monday. :) :) :)

& i still miss my bestie.

(12.02 am)
I WANT AN INVITATION ZM. :D

Ps: this is just a random post. dont dont dont read too much into it. D:

One of a kind.

2009-05-20T22:04:00.006+08:00

Terrible.

I've got bangs, sucks;
Im not doing work, sucks;
my menses came. Sucks.

IM MEETING ZM ON FRIDAY! ROX. :D

I miss my bestie & i miss my butt. :(

Econs lecture test finally over. But next week will be the real torture. SEA hist & Int hist.

Embrace the past with a warm hug, welcomes the future with a wide smile.

(11.33pm)

03月11日- 03月20日=石灰色

＊石灰色＊
你是一個冷靜的人，但常給自己壓力。你常常在小事上挑剔，又容易妒忌。你不大會定下來，但你可愛的性格能獲得朋友的信任也樂於跟你接近。

True? No?

Spell my name with LOVE pl0x.

2009-05-16T20:30:00.002+08:00

I've got a hell lot of craving. :(

Duck rice, Chicken rice, grilled chicken, ice-cream, tiramisu, laksa, stingray.... etc etc. Anybody? :)

Shopped with B. AND I WANT THE FEB 29th BAGGGGGGGGG. Like ohmyshit.

SHIT to the max. Im not studying. History test on monday. Econs test on wed. Kill me.

Cartel + Buckz + Girls + Lotsa laughter = happy girl. :D

Life is never smooth sailing.

2009-05-12T21:48:00.002+08:00

SAS today after school = SKIP CHINA DESK. Im thinking of quitting china desk. Waste of time. Tskkkkk. & CHINA DESK STILL FUCKING OWES ME MONEY!

Thank God that our team won, even though its by a small margin. If not it'll be a wasted trip. (: OWN JJ! :D

Had frog legs + porridge + fish curry + rice + canned lychee & peach = FULL, FULL, FULL!

I FINALLY PASS HISTORY. LIKE @#$%^&*#$%^& !!! :D

Buuuut,
I've been frowning quite a lot these days. I wonder why.. :(

be picture-fied! :)

2009-05-11T20:53:00.004+08:00

I chose some pictures to upload from the pictures that were stacking up like crazy. (yes, i do take a lot of pictures) :) :)

After dance. :)

Crashed NP & SP. :D

This belongs to Quack. Eeee.

@ Starbucks ytd. (my fringe split =[)

Take many many care piggggg.

BESTIE FTW :D

2009-05-08T15:39:00.002+08:00

Ok, am currently @ np, with my beloved bestie. BUUUUUT, he's busy doing work, and just left his lappie to me. :(

BOOO. Im super fascinated at the size of the library.

I WANT TO GO NP. I WANT TO GO NP. I WANT TO GO NP. I WANT TO GO NP. I WANT TO GO NP. I WANT TO GO NP. I WANT TO GO NP. I WANT TO GO NP. I WANT TO GO NP. I WANT TO GO NP. I WANT TO GO NP. I WANT TO GO NP.

~~FUCK~~ LOVE JC!!

My bestie's friends are ....... -.-

Off to SP soon!

Many hugs and kisses.

2009-05-02T19:10:00.002+08:00

I love my girlfriends. :D

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I typed out a whole paragraph of rants, and deleted them.

Guess my blog is still not the best place to rant.

Dont you know, stereotyping is wrong? Tsk. Arrogant kid.

The sun is smiling after the heavy downpour.

2009-05-02T01:13:00.003+08:00

HEY YA PPL! :D

Its been quite awhile since i posted. Haha.

Got quite a number of pictures to be uploaded, but im just pure lazy. Boooo. Sucks. Out with gfs ytd, went to nygh, then town for dinner. Love them like crazy. I still miss schooling with ling and panggg. :(

I need cash. Loads and loads of cash. I want to get a lot of things. Sucks.

For those who are concerned, im alright alrdy. Guess i'll just have to do my best. :D Yupz, cant wait to be graduated from JC. Tsk. Away from hectic lifestyle!

Giving up

2009-04-23T20:45:00.004+08:00

Some things are far too much for me to handle. This burden is far too heavy.

Sometimes, i do feel like giving up.

Today math lesson was a total disaster for me. Ever tried doing math till you feel breaking down? Maybe im too hard on myself. Or maybe i just cant take the stress?

Same old question. Why the hell am i doing in a jc?

Butt is right, worse come to worse, im going sch with him next year.

This is really shit.

2009-04-21T20:31:00.001+08:00

I SERIOUSLY FIND A NEED TO SCREAM.

Im super frustrated. Yet, i dont know why. FUCK IT.

Bye fuckers.

SIAN.

2009-04-16T19:59:00.007+08:00

GOLDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. :DD AM SUPER PROUD OF MY JUNIORS. &&& Lao wang promised a dance chalet, which, IM INVITED!! :) :) :)

Yupz, im fussing about this whole thing. But i dont care. Poooooof! If you think its nothing to fuss about, then YOU GUYS ARE DAMN WRONG (bugger said i sound like im scolding ppl, but this isnt referring to anybody.)! Because you arent the one forking out time to practice, accompany them. D: Although im not obliged to do so, but that's because i love my dance family! :D

This is the only thing that lifted my mood today. Tsk. Terrible to the max.

Well, i dont mind, & i wont probe. I cant be bothered. Aint the first anw. :)

I just want to pass my promos, safely graduate from PJC, & enter uni. I dont really have time for other things.

I think im going bonkers. Because i think SEA history is interesting. :O

PEEEEEK-A-BOOOOOOOOOO

2009-04-14T23:15:00.002+08:00

Class outing + clique outing. :D
Freaking overdued. >< Class outing.

09A05 FTW!

Clique outing.

More outings pretty please? I CANT WAIT FOR 09A05 SUSHI BUFFET. *lick lips*

:(

2009-04-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

Sorry good friend. :(

Hectic to the max

2009-04-08T23:16:00.004+08:00

I HATE HOMEWORKS.

Boooooooooooooooo.

The scary pictures im finding for china desky are giving me creeps. Sucks. :(

Bestie!

(:

Welcome backkkk.

2009-04-08T00:13:00.001+08:00

LIM MIN TAO IS BACK !!! HOLY!

Ok, i know im over reacting. Who cares?? MISS HIM LIKE @#$%^&*%$##.

Boooooooo. Terrible, horrible and vegetable.

being loved. :)

2009-04-06T22:58:00.003+08:00

Ok, today, TANHUIYING had a great sense of fufilment. I managed to endure the hardcore PE lesson today. & im still alive and kicking with muscles aches and jelly limbs/hands. :(

I want to eat prata @ thomson road. BOOO.

The epic scene is still playing inside my mind. I wonder whether its a good or bad thing.. Tsktsk.

I've got my radio/pod/cam. Now, its only my itouch/phone! :DDD

Am in serious need of an iTouch! Xuete!

Never feel so attached before.

2009-04-04T23:29:00.002+08:00

Went back to help out at dance today. :D

I love my ex-cca super a lot. I dun even feel so attached to pjc dance. Haha. Nice juniors because they had nice seniors like meeeeeeeee. They take after me. :)

Pictures for the day. :D

Check out Ling's face. Im not allowed to zoom it in :(

Wonder what's that tiko uncle doing. Tskkkk.

Lesbiany siaaaa.

Poor juniors had 10 hours of practice. Super hardcore. Gold ftw!!

Just for this one time.

2009-04-02T22:36:00.001+08:00

Dell finally delivered my computer. :D

Ok, back to work. :(

Quoting Celine Tan, JC life is seriously shortening my life. :(

WHY THE HELL AM I EVEN IN JC?

Out of my mind.

2009-03-31T21:34:00.001+08:00

FUCK DELL.

& i mean it. FUCK DELL.

Its so inconvenient without a personal computer. Its a fucking necessity! How much opportunity cost have i incurred just leaving my work alone just because this stupid computer cant read pdf files? & adobe hates me. :(

Dumbz.

Hey glacie. Miss youuuuuuuuuu. Take many many careeeeee ~~

& im a happy girl (:

2009-03-30T20:01:00.004+08:00

"HI, IM HY. & IM A SHOPAHOLIC."

Ok!!! I got my greeeeeeeen digital camera already!!! Many many thanks to my holey moley!! :DD

&&&&& my laptop will be in my room tomorrow (hopefully)! (((:

Ok, girlfriends took a hell lot of pictures using my cam today. But im unable to upload them. :( as soon as possible alright? *cross fingers* sorry babies.

Sometimes i find it ironic the way people work. They discouraged people to do something, yet, they themselves don't practice what they preached. Tskkk. Weird people.

Best friend is in malaysia till tuesday. BOOOO. :(

Another birthday girl!

2009-03-22T19:56:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PANGGGGGGGGY! :DDDDDDDDDD

I LOVE YOU LOADS. Shant be too bias. I LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS! Waittttttt. I name them out ok?

Glace, Chenzhu, Lingggg, Rene, Pang, Skkkkkkkkkkkk, Lineeeez. :DDDD

Ps: 3 of us are old alrdy :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2009-03-20T22:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENEEEE. :DD Love you !

RETARDISM

后悔

一切都化為烏有

its a bottomless pit..

Just another day.

Absence intensifies.

最近比较烦

真幸福

又能怎样呢？

Its good to change.

Its been a long time

Too much for me..

Chasing after the train

Here and there.

Taking a break D:

The horrible 2-way track.

Its time for some degree of maturity to kick in

Blessed by Your presence

Science and tech.

This is also known as..... The homework rush.

BABYLONIANS UNITEEEEEEE!

HAPPY LATE-NEW YEAR

Pictures overloadddd!

>:(

Nah, leave it.

Sick

BACK IN MUDALAND!!

You meant it a different way

600th

Are you outta your freaking mind?

What will be ahead?

A foiled plan

One down.

The latest craze

-

God saves the day.

-.-

The overwhelming happiness

Sleep and more sleep.

Cruel reality

I'm wrong.

Awesome gfs

Worried.

ASSUME = ASS + U + ME

Not me, its you

I'm safe.. Under Your wings

Towards guiltless chao-ism and liberation! \m/

To the start of liberation

ffls. Double boos.

Retard-ism

Its an easier way to die

A late danza!

A whole load of bullshit

confusion taking its toll

Love weakens one

???

The love we give away is the only love we keep. -Elbert Hubbard.

Face of an angel.

Girls nights out.

This is bad.

Busy manz.

Gaining weight, yet, happy. :)

food overload

So loved, so perfect.

D:

That bitter taste

Its love

Operation PS

Never ending laughter

Say hiiii!

Short post

What did ya'all call that?

Its absurd the way how things turn out

You found me when no one else was looking

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Gfs = L.O.V.E

Nothing can be better.

Embracing changes, facing challenges.

Its all in the mind

One of a kind.